Ich liebe dich =)

outing+管乐拜年团((:

2012-02-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

My CNY!

初4 ((:

My dear xinle <3
with her at ts for 1hr plus ((:
lolli,you're late.sad.TT

Then,went to sunway with kel to meet up with hsin (:

Dear hsin <3

Mocha almond+choc+berries x))

At hsin's house.
Emmy's so HYPERACTIVE!!xD

Conclusion for the day : fathao -.-

The next day,CHWB!(:

拜年团落在初5,27/1/2012

有3个driver- Alvin,Hong Feng,KangYong

总共19个人

休息是为了走更长远的路
这是休息站-June's house.

第1站-晓瑜家

第2站-俊颖家
这桌都是老的,除了fudi.

We are a family! ((:

丰富的午餐 xD

Hong Feng. 他一下车,我们就笑了 xD

Have instant noodle,instant camera,now we have instant photoframe!
Junying's framed mirror! x))

还是第2站,少了1个人？对不起,我太高了,等你高过我就可以拍到你了.(:

第3站-恺恩家

恺恩弟,染头发eh!

可爱的恺恩弟! x))

会唱歌的鱼

第4站-Alvin家
停留很久
而且这张照片被热烈讨论,就是因为做作的chan wui teng! xD

在alvin家,多数男生少数女生在赌牌
那么,多数女生在做什么呢？

Hahaha,知道她在做什么吗？ xD

我们女生就在fb一直gap lenglui!((:

June就模仿她们的pose,差不多成功了

记得练习多一点,等你摆这些pose当profile pic! x))

第5站-巧恩家

第6站-佩仪家
佩仪赢了 =D

mahjong!

捞生啦!

捞啊捞啊

捞完了,他们要吃mcd,可是要等2个小时

所以就去了mamak档

吃完了,就结束了。

yenshan's LOMO cam!((:

最后一张,瑞琪非你莫属,她好像没有一次是没有这种照片,她真的很贪吃啊,哈哈,继续加油!xDD
连她的衣服的cookie monster也在吃,现在我知道做么她会买这件衣了 :D

中间的小插曲就是Alvin的车撞到hf的车

Alvin的车裂了一点

虽然我们贴的钱不多,可是希望有帮到你一点

拜年团大概就是这样吧

希望下次有更多人可以一起来参加

一起享受一起欢乐

等老了,回忆起这些绝对是甜美的! (:

谢谢你

好朋友足够了(:

6sREN! ((:

2012-01-26T01:57:00.001+08:00

6sREN!((:

从我踏进这班,就很喜欢这班

幽默的男生们

总是带给大家乐趣

zx一个就够了!xD

还有chiu38的jingxuan,weixin,pixian她们

还有我的同座,予宁,秀敏,祈竫总是让我笑个不停

我很庆幸进到6sREN!

很热血啊!

原本因某些事情想离开的念头,也渐渐消失了

我现在

只想留下来

考统考

疯高三

去外国读书

oh yes!!xD

本来还想plan 6sREN拜年团

可是时间不ngam

等着看2月有什么假期再计划

我要疯狂度过在中华的最后一年!((:

以下是开学礼那天

班长&副班长

可爱的物理老师
一直讲super easy =.=

很癫的px! xD

我第一次酱认真做干事
罕见的一面

后面的诗豪好像yamlou酱
怪不得他们拿着书包护胸
dodo讲的 xD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY shuyi!
她的眼睛chiu美的!(:

bwahahaha!这2个shopo,我不认识.

chiu有天才的alvination!他写的叻!

macam yes 的dodo,还叫我拍下来
haiz,可以学我低调点吗？xD

px 鄙视dodo?

chemis teacher!他教到不错!

扮可爱是?
show给她看吧!((:

自己涂自己的手 =.=

dodo 的s2可以挤8个人

holy holy yeu yeu! ((:

新朋友,jiawen!她很聪明! x))

新年前的最后一天,20th JAN (:

最后一节,老师给我们拍MV eh!

chiu HIGH de! xDD

MV还没upload,勇康讲size太大了

这2个chiu 38的
我输了! xD

haha,你的手指很长horh =.=

yuning chiu 可爱的! ((:

PIXIAN!!! xDD

S.H.E?

上课时候拍的,s2果然厉害!
dodo,shuang mei you?(:

这是下课时的圆舞台
很热闹!

有些是dodo的照片

所以非常谢谢你! ((:

在还没拍MV前

其实我不是很喜欢开心乐龙龙那首歌

but现在听到的时候

就会想起我们一起乱乱跳舞的画面

这是我在6sREN留下第一个最美好回忆

((:

高三的第一个月就是这样

除了考试多,欢乐也多

期待接下来的日子会是怎样

还有9个月就统考？O.O

会不会太快了呢？

毕业短片

我很期待!

我要继续热血下去

精彩疯狂度过高三的生活!

OH YEAH!

我终于写完了

开学见!((((((((:

2012!

2012-01-09T20:21:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year!(:
woooo!OLYMPICS in LONDON in JULY!
waited for so long,finally it has come!
Lee Chong Wei must win over Lin Dan again like at the korea open!

Hmm,Not blogging for a period of time

Nothing much,just went to singapore from 23-29,2011

I love the system there,especially the MRT,very convenient!

But the people there,quite rude.

I love MARINA BAY the most!

OMG,I really have to go there again.(:

Then 30th wash bandroom

it's a fun day again with bandmates!

Kangyong!after school you're not there to accompany me home adi..so lonely.

koey en!(:

Yihuan!(:

CLA! <3

Jeeyean & Ky (:

hahahaha,ruiqi & ky xD

hen wai de junying!xD

huiteng,yenshan,lingsong ((:

Then 31st with dear xinle,leshin,kehhow,dylan,suojian

My dear Yap Xin Le ((:

Then 4.1.2012 till now.
School reopen!((:
6sREN,not bad!xD
sit with yuning,siewmun,qijing,px,dodo!
I just know I kept laughing and talking only xD
Yuning xiaodian also very low,omg,how to concentrate in class.LOL
Today first time meet music teacher,陈凯旋,omg,DAIB dao!!!
the whole period just kept laughing only!
It will be a fun music period in 2012!weeeee ((:

jiayoussss!((:
我要好好过我的高三生涯
过得精彩
过得开心
充满欢乐
woohoooooooo~ come on! ((:

我不知道
可是
我也有错
逃避
选择面对的时候
汝又逃避
我真的不知道该怎样
我很讨厌这种感觉
我不在汝眼里的感觉
没有存在感的感觉
汝现在当我是什么
汝真的不想重逢做朋友吗？
我只知道我有点hurt
因为我已经透明了

时间吧,pls!
02,我们一起加油放下!
让我们一起控制我们的心跳
不再因为他们而加速
谢谢你,知我心! :)

For now,I just wanna cherish all of my lovely buddies!

because friends are forever and more secure.

I love you.

Crazy.

2011-12-22T12:51:00.001+08:00

Been with xq for 3days 2 nights

She came to overnight at my house

from 19-21

On the 19th,we just planned to watch movie "Breaking Dawn"

But snap! It only shows at 8pm and 12pm,too late.

So we watched New Year's Eve!

Not bad..What they say are meaningful.

After the movie,I told xq I wanna make a snowman

So we went and buy stuffs to make

Then she said she wanted also

So,we made together

Bought stuffs until 8

So crazy.

We spent 90 for those stuffs

Damn!

I'm really gonna bankrupt

Iish ):

Chatime

Purple christmas tree

New York

This is for yq..england(:

We made till 3am

woke up at 6.45am

Then we went to school together

Because band had interchange with Nanyang Junior College

from 8.30 - 4+

They are super geng and nice!

It was a tiring day

Walk here and there

Run up and down

So I was so tired

We went back after dinner

And continue to make

Until 1.30

But I slept halfway at 12+

She helped me knit after I slept

Can't tahan really TT

Thank you so much!(:

1st time knitting and really needs PATIENCE!

I don't have it.):

Then ytd morning went to 2 places

And delivered

I'm glad I still know the way after once in April

Then we went to ts for the 2nd chatime

大功告成! x)

Done!

Okay,too over le.

Sorry,I shud have controlled myself

I shouldnt have made it at first

I thought it would make you happy

But I was completely wrong

It will just make you feel annoyed

So,this will be the last

So that you can find a new one happily

Sorry.

The handmade snowman

Maybe it's now being kept into the dustbin

If you did,I truly understand

When someone clings on to you too much

uncontrollable,doing stupid stuffs for you

Well,I promise,the last.

Last for you.

Sorry for the clinging on.

I don't know if it's true

But if it is,then zhu ni xing fu!

Happy Merry Christmas!

5年以来第一次的团庆

2011-12-19T04:11:00.003+08:00

今天

是进管乐5年以来的团庆

前2天没去集训

所以今天没表演

做招待

用电话拍照

就这样

瑞琪,辛苦你了！

放心,我20号会来

虽然我帮不到你很多

因为没有stamina了！

Good Luck to me on Tuesday!

很怕什么都不会了

又忘记带cla回来

唉～

照片时间

不多,因为电话相机不太好

中华表演

宽柔表演

勇宾&詠豪合奏You Raise Me Up

感言

前任主席,可爱的捷敏
子佳伴奏

张焜水老师致词

毕业生们领毕业证书 (:

竑丰

勇宾

佩雯

捷敏

詠豪

以欢
希望你的耳朵会痊愈!(:
左耳听不到,是什么感觉
应该蛮痛苦
加油!

林松和凯恩的bear
很cute xD

Xin Hua ((:
只跟她拍照因为赶时间去看concert
欣桦,加油,你可以的! :)

Driver-Alvin Hoh

就是这场concert了
有Nonami指挥
到现在,还是很喜欢Japanese Graffiti VIII&
Titanic(Ricky,watch 3D together next year!)

时时刻刻都在饿的瑞琪

很wai的俊颖

宽柔给的纪念品
他们特地去弄,还蛮有心思的
(:

DaiB 的Alvin xD

一直玩pokemon的康勇

康勇

家融

指挥-子佳
加油了!
他的hearing比我好很多
Seriously,my hearing sucks.

晚餐了,Alvin,Ky & me (:

想念在台湾的她的Alvin

康勇
谢谢你每次载我回家

第一次喝ochado
它的珍珠很小,很难咬

今天完美的句点

哈哈,今天还蛮开心的
跟朋友在车上迷路其实很好玩下
很可惜,没时间跟ex member拍照
全部都变美了

其实跟管乐的人在一起
很开心
不知道是不是因为今天没有压力的存在
所以比较轻松
比较愉快
可以笑着度过那短短的2,3个小时
平时想到管乐,就是压力的开始
可是明年有子佳帮忙
会比较好吧
至少压力可以减少一点点
但是无可否认
压力是推动力
但是不要太多就可以了

我的财政,张慧仪,你在哪里?
听说我考试期间你那边很多问题叻
开学pls跟我讲进度
and求你开机or回我好不好
我真的很怕
因为我们是管钱的
求求你,跟我说
不然我不知道要怎样处理

很想留长发了

讲到长发

不懂做么我很记得有一次在MidV MPH

找着钢琴谱的时候

突然收到一封简讯

他说,他梦到我留长发

很像gorilla

oh my,笑死我

幸好那时候没有人在周围

不然真的以为我有精神病

就是你啦

所以很记得

今天看concert的时候

就在最后一首歌-First Love

想起了你

想到你为了我出席的concert

Haha..就这样,嘴角扬起了笑容

很单纯的,想因你而笑

4点了

晚安

Alvin,这个post不emo了吧! xD

Cousin's wedding.

2011-12-18T02:06:00.007+08:00

So,today,attended my cousin's wedding

This is the 1st cousin to marry
So all of us have to wear really formal

At JW　Marriot Hotel

Btw,the wedding photos are really stunning!

They took at melbourne because there's where they met

Those photos really took my breath away
So nice so romantic
The photographer really knows how to capture the angle
and he's good at capturing the sunlight
and there's a pic really looks like twilight
BRILLIANT!LOVE IT!
It's Daren Chong photography from melbourne I think

My cousin brother. He had his bow tie which makes him look smarter but he TOOK IT OFF!

I'm always waiting for desserts at any occasion,so here it is,BROWNIES!
Delicious.

My cousin sister. She hasn't been sleeping for a night to finish her essay.

So,have a good night sleep today at the hotel!(:

See you next week at Singapore!

So,where's the bride and bridegroom?

Hmm,the pics are in another camera.

I dont have it

But they were stunning today

So sweet ((:

This afternoon,I found the score for 依然爱你and你好吗

but I don't really like the accompaniment

So didn't print it out

And found the score for Without You

but the accompaniment sucks more

so choppy

Currently learning white christmas song with my pianomates

kind of electone ensemble

Actually electone is more fun than piano,seriously!

but it's harder

White christmas is a nice song,for me.

And I love having WHITE christmas

Next post,christmas!

gonna upload my yamaha school's deco

white piano with white christmas tree with white cute snowman

I wish I could grab them all! ((:

Seriously,I have to sleep now.

Tmr gotta go to school for tuanqing.

I don't know how it goes.

But still hope it will be a success!

Good luck bandmates tmr! ((:

Just now was seeing through those photos

Actually,I'm quite happy to see that

He had fun and happy

That's enough to cheer me up,perhaps.

But should be happy for him.

Seriously,I have to stop overthinking

Overthinking really leads to negative thoughts!

And,negative thoughts lead to depression!

You too,girl!

I know you're making hard decision

But,sorry I couldn't help

Because I don't know what's best for both of you

Sorry,but still good luck girl!

Don't overthink!

10 more hours and I'm gonna meet them

BANDMATES!

It's like so long didn't meet them

Kind of excited now

And oh pls,don't announce the WaiKing and WaiQueen tmr

It will be so fish

I know I'm gonna get like 1st or 2nd

Junying or me.LOL

Am I really that wai??

And in class,I got 3 titles==

最黑最yam最爱笑

其实我变白了

跟去年比,我白了很多

可是还是班上最黑的

最yam?Err..okay.Maybe.

最爱笑,okay,I admit.I can laugh for the whole period without any reason

Kind of like 智障儿童

Choi!

but,I don't know why my laughing point is so DAMN

LOW.

Okay,really gotta sleep now.

3am now.

I have 6 hours to sleep.

So,goodnight!

Today is a non-emo day

and I'm proud!haha((:

16.12.2011

2011-12-17T03:33:00.005+08:00

Oh my,我现在上fb也会觉得有点罪恶感
学会集训营,最终还是缺席,最后一天才去
因为这2天堂姐结婚有活动
我觉得好愧疚！
他们都在努力,而我在这里上网！
对不起,我真的无法出席
我妈还厉害到去复印喜宴卡要给主席看
= =

他们好像会练super mario!
加油！我希望我开学后可以追上你们
从停学会到现在没有吹过
我真的很怕我连基础的东西都不会了
我现在开始担心了
早知道把cla带回来 TT
管乐团加油！期待我们进步的日子
还是很想念Japanese Graffiti那首歌 (:

今天3点就去堂姐家了
没有东西做
就打鼓了
很爽！
虽然是有点少了刺激感
因为这个鼓是electrical的
可是有很多不同的声音
很好玩
可是我的手脚不能协调
最后还是有点进步啦
可是打鼓真的很爽！

okay,过后就是tea ceremony
还蛮好笑
堂姐跟堂姐夫还蛮配的
堂姐夫有点害羞
哈哈
新加波人
明天就是他们的大日子
祝新婚快乐！

Okay,so I didnt know that they will be back today and not ytd
All the while I thought was ytd
Waited for like 7hours for a reply
Well,until I asked xq only I knew
So,hmm,he must be sleeping now.
have a rest and take care! (:

今天想做的疯狂事情
还是取消了
我只是想从远处亲眼看到平安抵达
可是没有理由抵挡
还是放弃这个念头
对不起,太在乎。

It's 4am now,goodnight!
其实最不舍得的是你
因为你的好朋友们都没读高三
友谊是永固的
所以希望你也别太伤心
最美好的回忆,锁着,想念时回顾,曾经的美好,不会遗忘。
我知道你可以的.

非常乱水的一篇

2011-12-12T02:23:00.003+08:00

刚从云顶回来就emo了 ==

一回来就看到ama躺在椅子上

又看到铁的tongkat

又看到一堆药

我真的不知道我该做什么

我不会表达我对家人的爱

有时候想给予关心,可是就是不会表达

装作不关心,其实就是外冷内热

有我这个孩子或孙子真悲

昨晚我,02,px,alvin睡不好

因为听到某些东西

让我睡不安

心一直怦怦跳着

一直半睡半醒

那时候好希望你会出现

希望可以快点回家

其实,一切只是心里作用

明明就是风

徒劳无功==

其实这3天,我02px都离不开去年跟他们去云顶的时光

当然,最想念的是我

给我个时光机好吗？

云顶的每一处都好像有你的画面

回到家睡觉

又被骂没做家务

只会睡觉

可是不想解释太多

做罢了

做完了,开电脑

又被骂

又去做家务了

好烦啊

16-18 集训营

17刚好是堂姐结婚

今天妈又讲16号有buffet很重要

我现在不知道要不要去buffet

怕又被骂

那天去云顶,又刚好是堂姐结婚的大礼

没有帮到忙,姑姑她们好像有点不喜欢

啊,到底该去集训还是buffet

17号一定要去喜宴了

谁可以帮我做决定？

不曾miss过集训,因为我会觉得很愧疚

唉~

突然又有了动摇

该离开还是留下来

虽然比较可能留下来

可是,统考文凭不简单

而且我统考的科目都很差

一科微积分就够我死了

加上物理

不堪设想

最多可能只能去singapore读

可是离开又不懂要读什么

我不懂我好在哪里

算了,这么多废话,留罢了...

有时候,很想一些人消失掉

可是我很了解他们的感受

所以也就算了

好想ignore,可是想到如果我是对方,我会有点不开心

所以,回罢了...

可是这样会不会太虚伪？

所以我很确定你绝对不虚伪

好多东西想说,可是不知道要怎样说

原来掩饰是件蛮痛苦的表情

虚伪的表情

只是不想扫兴

只想逗逗别人开心

即使自己是多么的没形象

其实,逗别人开心也在逗自己开心

即使是多么的短暂

有时候,安慰一个人,也需要技术

自己自身难保还要安慰人

怪不得不见效

因为在那情况,我也会跟你一样

所以,我不知道要说什么

希望你没事了 (:

为了可爱的朋友,看了那些年2次

最喜欢的一句就是

“我要做一个厉害的人

让这个世界因为有了我

而有一点点的改变

而我的世界

只不过是你的心”

他3点还在上线

弄到我也不想下线了

晚安(:

xinle,谢谢你sms我

很开心! Haha..

等你看breaking dawn啊!

力宏

3月3号见

原来有时候

即使再怎么疯狂一位偶像

有时候因为一个人

也可以取代了王力宏的位置

我现在依然疯狂

依然坚持

就这样

我承认我太傻

但是有时候付出

开心的是自己

至少你知道你做了一件事给他

即使不被理会

即使再怎样心碎

也依然坚持

我要做个坚强,坚持,真正开心的人

等罢了

13-15 请小心,好好照顾身体

and其实我很希望你会把它们带过去

好让我知道

你有什么事情的时候,至少有它们

虽然它们不是万能

但是至少有少少的帮助

再见,这3天我们的距离又远了

没关系,平安回来就好

Enjoy your trip! (:

qishiwozuidanxinshiwode ama

努力祷告

一切会变好

傻

2011-12-08T03:04:00.002+08:00

計算著為你流下了多少眼淚

就代表又對我的心撒了多少謊

但每次我都選擇選擇相信相信你是愛我的

倔強的以為我真的能改變你看你裝無辜的眼神　我很窒息

難道你沒有看見　看見我對你的好還是你忘了　那些數不清的愛情軌跡

你說我傻　傻在愛上只懂愛自己的人我說你傻　傻在愛他你的眼睛騙不了人

還在期待會有奇蹟出現

12月2号

2011-12-01T20:00:00.002+08:00

明天是12月2号

我还记得去年的这一天

是美梦成真的一天

今年的这一天

却是噩梦的开始

每一夜

睡不着

只希望美梦能再成真

这一天

依然对我有意义

我的日历很早就在这一天画上"Happy 1 year with xx"

可是

没了

你说故事已结束很久

我忘了向前走

111111

2011-11-17T22:07:00.006+08:00

11.11.11

When I reached home,I received a msg that I've been waiting! (:

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

All the best to you.

I dont know what to say

Just really happy when you texted me.

Thank you. :)

All the best in your future.

我发现到

等待可以是一种美

因为当你得到的时候

那种快乐的感觉是难以形容的

虽然等待的过程很痛苦

可是你得到过后

你会更珍惜

不是吗？

谢谢你！友谊万岁 :)

Never on fb for a week

Today saw many status about sejarah

AHAHAHAHAHA

Finally sejarah will be a history forever!xD

My BM. TT

6 more to go and I'll be free! X)

你好吗？

先转头

是因为不想看到你先转头的心痛

为什么

每次都这样

就

擦肩而过

是我

没勇气对着你微笑

我还是那个脆弱的我

骗

2011-11-10T13:12:00.003+08:00

有些事情

在面前

是这样

在背后

却不一样

该相信哪一个？

不知道

难以置信

我被骗了

被骗的感觉原来是这样

努力不去相信

可是事实却是那样

该如何？

SPM 还有4天

我

读了什么？

一直发呆

很想努力拼

可是原来我还是不能

这次SPM真的不用放太多希望了

因为我没努力

国语

永远最怕的一科

A 离我越来越远

Haiz..

怎么办

No,I never.

2011-10-31T11:35:00.003+08:00

I dont know

Why

I didnt know

.........................

World full of lies

World full of hatred

World full of unconsciousness

World full of misunderstanding

World full of dishonesty

World full of uncertainty

Was it meant to be like this?

Why

I lost.

p/s I dont hate you and you

Dont forget to smile! (:

2011-10-14T00:30:00.005+08:00

Bruno Mar's It Will Rain

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same
If you walk away
Everyday, it will rain, rain, rain

This song is sooooooo nice

lingering my mind

Love this song so much

wonder which part would it be played during the movie

Breaking dawn,waiting!

after spm must watch (:

Tuesday

My life begins

I'm not emo anymore

I'm happy

The old me (:

I don't feel the pain when I have flashbacks

I SMILE!

I just smiled and thought that I had a great life back then

I had,I swear!

I could be happy so easily

Just by seeing you I was happy (:

How I used to be so happy

and now I'm not gonna destroy the way I used to be

the happy me! (:

I can still be happy with you in my memories!

Smile whenever I thought about it

I had sweet happy moments!

I had friends!

Life's good,isn't it?

The sky isn't dark anymore

It's bright now!

Weeeeeeeee! :)

I seriously wanna study

But the computer seduced me TT

blogging everyday is fun!

I thought about my clarinet

Suddenly I had fear that I dont know how to play it anymore

It's been so long since I visited it

Aiks..I hope I can still play after so long

I still have a year!

And I dont want to suffer learning it all over again.

Practise after SPM (:

Facebook

Just now I saw her status

I wish I could help her with her mishap

But,we're like strangers now

And I dont know what happened

I miss the old us.

Seriously,I miss you badly.

6 days 11 posts at the new blog

I love the template

It really feels like.....sweet memories (:

Don't quit,look forward.

2011-10-09T00:57:00.003+08:00

So,don't quit

There are so much more waiting for you ahead

Never give up on LIFE.

The one who commit suicide are STUPID to gave up on LIFE

I would never do that!

memorieslast0908.blogspot.com

A new blog I never thought I would create

Well,it's pointless and boring

but I enjoy posting there. (:

i liebe dich noch immer

Gute Nacht :)

Abduction

2011-10-08T23:46:00.003+08:00

Watched this movie on Friday after exam

With Kel and Hsin (:

Well,it's really THRILLING!!

I just dont hope I'll see my name on the missing kids website one day xD

After that,I took LRT

I was taking the ride for an hour

Because,I did something stupid,again.

I took from titi to cahaya

then cahaya to pwtc

bout 20+ stations LOL

I wandered at cahaya for 5 mins

I wished I could wander around longer

But the sky is getting dark and I'm afraid to walk home alone

when the sky is dark

At cahaya,I was so near and yet so far

I just missed it when I was there in April.

I wonder,if I still know the way.........

Hmm,I kind of realised something on Thursday

After I got my BM paper2

I can just say

Happy mood triggers you to score well

And it did.

But that was the only day I was freaking HAPPY

I just wanna say thanks to YOU

if it weren't you,I wouldn't score this well

if it weren't you,I would have failed for BM

But,that's the only day.

Still,I thank You.

I had wished time would have stopped on that day.

(Why this phrase sounds so familiar!)

我活该

2011-10-03T19:04:00.003+08:00

Things happened again.

All because of ME

I mind too much

I'm too jealous

I lost one

and now I lose two

I'm sorry.

Jealousy is controlling me

And now I'll try to keep away from it

You have the freedom

Yes,YOU HAVE

I shouldn't have mind too much!

是我把事情搞得太复杂

对不起

最无辜的是你

我一直不想伤害的你

怎知道分了就间接伤害了

让你失去了重要的人

是我错了

你有你的自由

所以我活该。

You can now hate me

I deserve it.

And so,now I know

Miracles wont happen on me ever again

after this.

.

2011-10-03T18:25:00.003+08:00

Haven't been talking for 13days

Haven't been texting for 13 days

And this is killing me.

Loneliness struck

I'm further and further away from everyone

I'm losing more and more

I don't know how to get back to the usual life

It's so tough

There's only 1 way

But it will never happen to me,perhaps

Unless

Miracle happens.

我以为只有爱情才会有接受和拒绝

原来朋友也一样

Losing one by one

because I'm still locked up by myself

I'm not talking much

I'm not laughing much

I'm not focused

I'm still stucked

I'm still lost

Will you lead me the way?

I need help,really.

To be a happier person

To be a person in life again.

I still love you by leehom (:

2011-09-30T19:17:00.004+08:00

The place where I gave you a bd surprise.

When you were sad,I did (:

The best present ever,handmade rose.(:

A closer look. And the belt. I wore it 5 times since then.

I passed by today. I rmb you tried a pair of white trousers at Lois. You said you were too skinny.

Here I am again.

Leehom's new song!!!!!!

He knows how I felt so he wrote this song xD

一閃一閃亮晶晶　留下歲月的痕跡
我的世界的重心　依然還是你
一年一年又一年　飛逝僅在一轉眼
唯一永遠不改變　是不停的改變
我不像從前的自己　你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑　依然的美麗
日子只能往前走　一個方向順時鐘
不知道愛有多久　所以要讓你懂
我依然愛你　將是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜　時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸　每個動作　每個表情
到最後　一定會　依然愛你
(依然愛你　依然愛你…)

我依然愛你　或許是命中注定
多年之後　任何人都無法代替
那些時光　是我這一輩子最美好的
那些回憶　依然無法忘記
我依然愛你　這是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜　時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸　每個動作　每個表情
到永遠　一定會　依然愛你

对不起，我依然爱你

Enjoy your outing and movie..

While here I'll try to be happy (:

Girl in the window

2011-09-29T19:06:00.003+08:00

Girl In The Window-Bruno Mars (:

Staring from my room I see them
Holding hands wish I could be them
Lovers doing what we use to do
(But I'm stuck here alone)
That's the way it's been here lately
You're too busy now to save me
Feels like you forget I'm waiting for you

Sometimes I wish I could just let go
But I love you
And I believe that one day you will come around
But can you tell me

How do I always end up being the girl at the window
(Window, window)
I tell myself I'm not gonna wait for you whenever you go
(You go, you go)
You give me your word and I always take it
You say you'll be home but you never make it
So why do I...
Always end up that girl at the window (the window)
The girl at the window

Oh time goes on and we're growing apart
Broken promises break my heart
Please don't give me a reason to say goodbye

Sometimes I wish I could just let go
But I love you (I love you)

And I believe that one day you will come around
But can you tell me

How do I always end up being the girl at the window
(Window, window)
I tell myself I'm not gonna wait for you whenever you go
(You go, you go)
You give me your word and I always take it
You say you'll be home but you never make it
So why do I...
Always end up that girl at the window (the window)
The girl at the window

It's not worth to dislike someone because of who you love.

I should really let go

But how?

Still waiting for miracles to happen

Miracles DO happen,but low probability

What's wrong?I'm sorry.

I must stop being like this

posting nonsense

tiring.

Waiting is painful

when everyday you give hope to the new day

but it just ended up in a puff

Fake?

2011-09-29T18:54:00.003+08:00

Last day tmr (:

chinese..urgh! =(

26/9

physics paper 1

I forgot to bring calculator into the claz

damn!

I was so frustrated that I cant focus

Iish

paper 2,3..err..what can i say?

way too bad

27/9

chemis

Err..better than physics perhaps.

28/9

add maths

oh my,WORST

And I cant really focus

Made me almost lack of time to finish

29/9

Bio

Err..

Err..Havent finished reading

so....hmm.

When someone you were together with for months

And after that you heard from your fren that he/she never loved you before

How would you feel?

Ouch,that hurts badly.

Fake loving?

so you really never?

Okay..she's better.

Fool.

2011-09-25T22:28:00.003+08:00

Hmm..I saw this from hsing's blog..

sorry for copying..but the lyrics caught my attention (:

I was a fool to ever leave your side
Me minus you is such a lonely ride
That break-up we had has made me lonesome and sad
I realize I love you 'cuz I want you back

I spent the evening with the radio
Regret the moment that I let you go
Our quarrel was such a way of learning so much
I know now that I love you 'cuz I need your touch

I sat here starin' at the same old wall
Came back to life just when I got your call
I wished I could climb right through the telephone line
And give you what you want so you would still be mine.

Physics tmr and I still have 6 more chpts to go

but it's good to know someone is also GG-ing-dodo 02 xD

I'm a fool for wanting this so desperately.

Reunite.

dejavu

2011-09-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

Went to the curve just now

Had dinner with family

I passed by that place

The place where I was standing on july 16th

thinking so much

Flashbacks again.

Studied chpt 2 carbon

2.9 Natural rubber

I remembered that you asked me to teach you

I remembered that's the 1st time I really taught you

Because I only know chemis well

At least it's not a stranger to me

Flashbacks again.

McD with her on friday

I remembered there was where you told me you prefer vanilla than chocs

Told her the whole story

It took quite long to finish the whole story

But I knew I should have stopped

My mom and sis and you

They said I'm getting thinner

Yes,I truly agree.

I've been skipping lunch since aug holiday

I lost interest in food

Even chocs and ice cream which used to be my favourites

I only take dinner and a lil breakfast

I dont know why.

I hope it's not aneroxia.LOL

Okay,I really should be studying now.
Distance is getting further now

I should do smth to be best friend again

I'm sorry.

For neglecting you.

Since that thingy happened to me.

Studying is a good thing to do,sometimes (:

Today My Life Begins.

2011-09-25T00:02:00.001+08:00

Today My Life Begins- Bruno Mars (:

I've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if I
I'd ever heal again

oh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and I've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

oh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets
so I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins
today my life begins

Suits me.

I should be studying now. D:

F.I.N.E.

2011-09-24T11:49:00.004+08:00

It's raining these few days

and I love it.

Hi.

20/9 1st day of exam- BM

this was the only day i was truly happy after 23 days :DDDDD

my happiness cant be described in words

but only this day.

1 day only.

yikes.

不是我不要讲

而是真的没有东西讲

不是你想象的那样

虽然是多么希望是真的

because it's only this day

I myself was surprised too

but..yea,1 day only.

21/9 ENG

iish..suddenly felt so empty in my heart

eng was the subject I wish to get high marks

but this time..I dont know what happened.

my directed writing..wrote WRONGLY.

my continuous writing..I forgot to write the question number

that's the worst part..

And I really dont know why I'm not focusing today

22/9 SEJ

weird that they were looking at my direction

maybe nth..but I was fake-studying at that moment

because I was curious

but still..try not to care too much

SEJ not so good..I forgot almost everything that I have studied

What happened again.

23/9 MATHS,MORAL

maths,maybe it's really an easy one

but for me,it's not really like a piece of cake

because I didnt really do any exercises nor study much

and when I was studying maths in class

I thought about the time when you taught me maths

teaching me everything I asked

and patiently

but now I was alone

24/9 BIRTHDAY

my mom's bd

feel sorry that I didnt make any cards nor presents

I will..after exam (:
yan mei,mary,shi hao,cheau en 'S bd too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (:

physics chemis bio next week

have to study now.

good luck! (:

Everyday is a brand new day.

I dont know what I'm still waiting for.

I dreamt twice

and there was one that was so FREAKING REAL

but when I opened up my eyes

It was only a dream.

btw,I saw this from a book.

F.I.N.E.-Fed up,Insecure,Neurotic,Emotional.

I'm fine (:

还在原地.

2011-09-11T10:21:00.002+08:00

唉，很羡慕joey teoh & yinling..

从中学到现在毕业了也在一起

幸福到～

你的女朋友还在..我的不在了 =(

2个星期了

我还在玛丽安娜海沟

知道了一些事情

好伤好伤我

但是还是放不下

其实好想说

当我发现你的问题时，我会告诉你

说了出来，会吵架

但是吵架后还是有爱你的冲动

当你发现我的问题时，你不告诉我

而解决方案只有那2个字

为何？你告诉我，至少我以后就会改啊

但是你就是告诉你的朋友你对我的不满

而我却2个字后才知道

如果你告诉我，也许一切会更好

不是吗？

为什么我还在解决呢？

其实都已经过了2个星期

为何还在原地

不想接受这个事实

该醒了

真的该醒了

预试还有1个星期

我做了什么

虽然你们看到我读书

其实有没有进脑是另一回事

这几天

硬挤出来的笑容

勉强。

回忆还在打转

每天每晚还在等

等什么？

等一个现在已不爱我的人

我深知你会叫我别等了

但是我做不到

每天都抱着新的希望

而希望都不实现

怎么了

心痛

矛盾

勉强

回忆

曾经拥有过的

曾经给过我的

曾经爱过我的

曾经让我开心

曾经关心我的

曾经安慰我的

曾经，都变了曾经。

谢谢你给过我的曾经

我曾经很开心。

再逞强什么

都改变不了什么

快乐的泉源，去了哪里？

勉强的笑容，原来是这么痛苦的。

TRIAL加油

中秋节快乐

你看到的月亮

我也看得到它

因为我们只有一片天空。

后悔 :(

2011-08-31T23:05:00.003+08:00

人

为什么总在后悔之后才发现其实没必要这样做

为什麽就是这么犯贱

做了之后，才想要挽回

还抱着很大的期望可以挽回

以为真的可以

可是一切不是想象中的美好

不是你要怎样，情况就会依你而行

不管再做什么，真的没用了

真的没用吗？真的吗？

好希望总有一天会变成有用

但是可能吗？

为什么当天不停止自己做根本一直都不想做的事

本来就是传不出了嘛！

为什么还要再打多一个再传出去呢？

它就这样被传出去了

就这样

对，就这样毁了我

就这样影响了我的心情

死笨蛋我！

除了笨，不知道还有什么形容词来形容我了

唉，现在讲这些有用吗？

没有了就没有了

不管怎样，就是没有了

我还在逞强什么

伤心，心痛，哭泣

笨蛋！需要吗？

伤心，心痛，哭泣对我有什么用？

难道这样就能挽回了吗？

笨蛋！你明白吗？

为什么讲了这么多次要坚强

你这个笨蛋还不听！

笨蛋，你真的太笨了

笨到我实在没力了

笨到我已经不知道要做什么了

笨到我读书到一半可以流泪

笨到我还相信我们可以重新开始再在一起

回忆当初的美好

感慨如今的后悔

Good night 没了

Good morning 没了

他没了

My everything is gone. =(

Goodbye my love.

blog is the only space i can express myself.

AhYanHeng给我的灵感(:

2011-08-27T23:30:00.004+08:00

好久没来到这里
不知道想说什么

太多事情发生了

这个8月，也许就是这年里最烂的一个月

很讨厌这个8月

班上真的是有哭风

我那一区就有8个人在8月里哭过 ==

没有学会了

也许得空了

但是有学会的时候，我发现我的时间过得更充实

没有时间才是有时间，有时间就是没时间

因为今年的失败，我大概有个头绪明年要怎样做了

失败是成功之母

希望明年有zj的帮助会更好

但是他真的比我厉害

应该向他学习

刚刚看了Ah Yan Heng 的blog

很感触

发现原来我跟你差不多一样

我们面对的，真的蛮相似

只是还没到结局

灰色的字，都是这位小姐所写的感性话 (:

“ Don't quit because something went wrong, quit because you tried your hardest and nothing made it better”

对，有时候不管怎样再付出，也改变不了什么

当一个人说他不好的时候，也许那一个人错了

当两个人说他不好的时候，也许两个人都错了

当全部人都说他不好的时候，不是大家都错了

是我一直在自欺欺人 :)

对，有时候听到朋友说他不好，会觉得他们都错了

可能过了一段时间，你会觉得原来他们是对的

I am just looking for someone to love and be loved by, someone I could trust and share forever with.
It sounds simple but isn't easy at all :)

对，爱情就是这样，听起来好简单，做起来却是另一回事

有些事情明知道会受伤害还是要回头

有些事情明知道不应该去做的但是还是做了

有时候说不想见到你了还是想见到

对，女生就是这样，明明受到伤害，都会努力地原谅，努力地回头，努力地再爱

口是心非，也许就是女生的本质

说不，其实心里是多么的不一样

在乎到我开始觉得我自己真的很小器，我明明就不是酱的人，其实原因很简单，就是因为你在乎TA。有时候我真的不是要无理取闹，我只是想你关心我多一点点，有时候我真的不是想要偷看你的私隐，是你真的有太多东西瞒着我了，我最不开心的事就是你根本不知道我在不开心什么。

对，有时候我也是觉得我很小器，但是真的因为太太太在乎

一开始觉得自己不会变小器，但是走得更久时，小器就成了好朋友

一点点小事，就可以让我变得很小器

一点点小事，就可以掀起吵架

有时真的不想无理取闹，但是真的想对方多关心一点点，因为我很关心他

不知道有多少次，就因为我们的问题，一次又一次地哭。

对，为他流泪，好像已成了平常事

有时候真的很想坚强，但是听起来简单，做起来还比登月球更辛苦

坚强，不是我的强项

有很多次我告诉自己，不要期望这么多，就不会失望这么多，但是这样一起又有什么意思？很多次我已经吵到蒙起分手的念头，但是最后还是因为不舍得收场。每一次吵架我都说服我自己再给一次机会大家，不是每次解决不到的问题就用分手来解决。

对，期望越大，失望越大

但是没有了期望，也就等于绝望了

吵架时，也一样蒙起分手的念头，就是因为还爱着他，不舍得就因为吵架而结束一切

更会想起之间美好的回忆，而更不舍得结束掉

但是，人也会累的

地球不会因为一个人而停止转动，简单的句子浅白的道理

分手必须要有很大的勇气，也要长时间的思考

在想的过程中，浪费了多少时间，错过了多少人事物

而其实这些人事物，更值得去珍惜

因为一直以来你珍惜的那一位，不珍惜你

我知道你现在的心情

也许说自己心情好了，其实那道伤痕还存在

不管多少人安慰你，伤痕依然存在

就像你严重PK伤到的时候，伤痕会一直留着，难消灭

不管再怎样去搽药膏，也无法让它消失

我觉得，爱情里很难做到永远

不是悲观，而是事实

也许每次有了爱情，一定会希望它是永远

情侣之间会承诺永远，承诺不会离开对方，承诺以后会怎样怎样

但是每次都会有一方没守承诺，也许真的累了而逼不得已，或者是真的不爱了

不管什么原因，承诺也不是永远

hmm..现在需要的就是时间吧

时间是一种解药

我相信总有一天你可以忘掉TA

因为TA不值得你留恋

朋友才是永远！

所以不管什么事，找朋友就对了

朋友一直都在 (:

加油！

今天又看到了XinHua的blog

对，感情会变淡，但是我看得出他还是爱你的

别想太多，会变好的 (:

最近，真的发现到朋友才是你的一切

你跟朋友出去都是这么开心

跟你出去，我却好像就快闷死你

我知道他们给你的回忆比我们有的多

但是我真的很努力了

付出多，是因为想对方也会一样这样对你，不是吗？

但是原来不管付出再怎样多都好，原来我还比不上你亲爱的朋友

有时候逼自己别再为你做什么了，但是就是很固执地想为你做些事情让你开心

给你的时候，很开心

给了之后，很伤心

因为我做的都是白费

你不会更爱我

也许做太多，所以已经没什么效应了

我每次都希望你会爱我比我爱你多

但是好像不可能

不知道是因为我太爱，你无法超越

还是你觉得爱很累

有时知道更多，伤得更深

但是就是很矛盾地想知道

我就是，犯贱。

所以说

中学生不适合谈恋爱

多多少少就是会影响

但是爱了，很难放手

而且你也让我开心过

我还记得。

9月中SPM trial

现在真的很想专心读书

但是就是会发呆想起不应该想的事情

你们说我很辛苦很累，我知道

但是我就是不舍得

真的

不

舍

的

。

因

为

我

还

爱

他

。

读书读书读书！别想了。sayonara (:

MaY

2011-05-21T23:39:00.003+08:00

年中考考完了

有些好有些不好

讲了也没用，都改不了

年中考考完

是学生的春天

是我恶梦的开始

所以并没有很开心

最怕6月2日

6月1日 Yamaha考试

6月2日 Concert

8月15日 ABRSM 考试

11月 SPM

Yamaha考第4次了啊

最后一次了

不懂为什么越长越大越笨

给了4次的钱

1次RM300+

不懂失望了多少次

这次的concert..不知道要说什么

只能说真的超级不够时间

担心

不是讲笑，我真的没有资格

Because of you,I try my best to stay strong

You were there to listen when I'm so upset bout myself

Thanks for listening to my everything

What can I say?you know it..(:

2/6 (1/2) x)

waiting for 8/6

You just made me touched at 12.28am

goodnight (:

未知数

2011-03-15T21:16:00.002+08:00

再见

原来这么难说出口

原谅我们今天的沉默

不知道要怎样开口

一声再见我也不想说

因为很难说

当你说不懂几时可以再一起搭...

请原谅我只能沉默地看着你

因为我在控制着我的情绪

而且我也不知道答案

未知数

他们几时才能完完全全原谅你

几时才能不对你施加压力

几时才能让你回到原来的生活

未知数

一切只是个未知数

几时才能揭晓

时间才能解答

等待.想念.

想念.等待...

because of me?=X

2011-03-14T03:08:00.002+08:00

现在的管乐团

是不是因为我

变到这样

我不够严

我知道

但是我严不起来

因为我最怕就是得罪人

我知道

做领导的

就是要严

I'm trying..

give me time..

每个星期六

都是一种压力

sometimes I hope saturdays dont exist..

教练骂过我们的东西

修了很多次的东西

没有一次是完美进步

变成了我的自责

财政的东西很烦

因为我第一次接触新的system

还被问是不是第一次做财政

好伤我的心

好像没有一样东西是做得好

怎么了？

幸好他们明白了为什么

也教了我要怎样做

我怕我又再做错了

那份财政的东西做了3次

如果这次开学后再被退掉

我只能说我真的是很失败

但是我成功收齐会费

不像去年赔了多少钱

这是我今年唯一的进步

得到了少少的安慰 (:

forgive me for writing 3 posts at a time.

it's time to sleep..good night (:

3.20am.7 wake up.TT

明天会更好 (:

I hope you are fine.

All the best in your practice.

babiQ xD

2011-03-14T02:35:00.003+08:00

Today BBQ! (:

Xinle,Weijian,Xihao,Liwei,Guankeng,Kehhow,Linwei.x)

Dear,I'm sorry..

It seems like I'm not as high as you had expected.

I'm sorry sometimes I'm quiet..

I thought I'm fine..but deep inside I'm not.

I wanted to be happy in front of you.

But sometimes it's hard to pretend though.

I know I dont need to pretend as you are my best friend.

But I really want to make you happy as you have been waiting for this BBQ long time ago.

And you changed the date because of me..I feel much appreciated.

THANK YOU SO MUCH! (:

I'm sry for not being the one i used to be..

I like the kid you like.

xiang2 qing4..4 years old.so cute..xD

holding his cute little hands..I can feel happiness..

Being with a kid releases stress..

Sometimes I like being alone when I'm in low-spirits.

I love being alone in front of a swimming pool or beach.

just like today..

I love living at condo.(:

There's playground,garden or other places which you can go anytime.

even at night..looking at the swimming pool..it's nice..(:

forgive me,dear!

Next time ask more ppl,we must be HIGH!

Happy Holiday! x)

4hrs of sleep left..iish..meeting tmr.TT

good night (:

无奈

2011-03-14T01:04:00.004+08:00

When you told me

I dont know what to do.

I dont know what to say.

I dont know what to think.

I can just feel pain.

Although it's not me who needs to face that.

It's you,babe.

I feel sorry for you.

I feel so helpless.

I'm useless.

I know I cant change your mood

because 我不会说话

I'm not good,babe.

Things that you havent told me.

You told me the reason.

I dont wanna force you.

But please tell me soon,will you?

坦诚还存在吗?

I can bear the pain,babe.

经过了几次的伤，我还存在，你还在

我撑得住

Pls dont be afraid to tell me..

为什么每次事情转好的时候

过不久总是会被破坏

无奈。

Kiss the rain (:

2011-01-31T00:42:00.009+08:00

Hi.

I knew everything has changed.

Start all over again.

I know I can just wait.

Wait.

Many said that it rained for the whole day today.

Flashbacks of their painful memories.

Why do rainy days made ppl moody?

Luckily I'm at the mall for almost the whole day.

我得到了

但是我还是觉得我没资格

也许因为我知道有人比我做得更好

但是文凭已经在我手上

我应该相信自己？

I dont know..

I'm proud.but I'm unsure about my ability.

Coach said I've improved on the same day I got it.

I was shocked.It's unbelievable.

But that has encouraged me to do better.

I dont want to fail.I want to do the best.

But I'm always being controlled by my mood.

therefore,the things I wanna do would always be postponed.

No! Not anymore pls..I really want to do my best.

I want them to achieve a higher level.

I want improvement.

I want to show them that we can.

because we are CHWB.

I hope we can make it better TOGETHER!

taiwan,a good opportunity.(:

JIAYOUS pls!

I like to listen to greensleeve,very soothing.

phrasing,flowing.all the best CHWB (:

Still lack of confidence.

but better than last year.

iish,i need more..

Pls dont ask me the same question again.

Because I dont know the answer to that question.

I know everyone is curious to know why.

But I myself dont know.

习惯就好

I dont like to compare.

because I know if I compare,I will lose to myself.

They know you

They know me

They dont know us

-taylor swift (:

I love her so much.

I love breeze when I want to relax.

Just feel the cool breeze saying hi to you.

Genting,bored.but I love the cool breeze.

Bye,goodnight (:

她说

2011-01-22T23:17:00.006+08:00

她，告诉了我她的爱情故事

原来我看到的他们和真正的他们是不一样的

有谁知道他们发生什么事

只有他们知道

她说

他有时对她很冷

所以她也一样冷地对待他

但是她也不想这么做

她说

她付出了

却不想他知道

她很伟大

她说

她不知道男生有时在想什么

她不知道为什么关心他可是他却觉得这种小事不需要关心太多

她说

男生孤独时才需要她

不孤独时却忘了她

她说

男生不懂女生的心

男生不懂女生介意他不介意的事情

也许男生也会说女生不懂男生的心

她说

她在他的心目中到底重不重要

她说

他需要她的时候，她会在他身边

她需要他的时候，他究竟在哪里？

她说

谈恋爱很累

她告诉我

谈恋爱不能给太多的自由

给太多的自由

最终他会离你而去

如果要自由就别谈恋爱

谈恋爱需要牺牲一些东西

因为幸福和自由，像一枚针，不可能两头利

我说

他一定要好好珍惜她

因为她真的很爱他

加油她和他！

谢谢她告诉我她的故事

让我领悟了一些东西

我还是很想念

旧电话里的信息

因为我知道以后就很难再收到类似的信息

我还是很想念

旧电话里的照片

因为回忆就在里面

现在电话里少了很多色彩

它只知道什么是黑什么是白

为什么会不见它

很遗憾

为什么这么粗心

好笨好笨

为什么会跌到

好愚好愚

发现很多东西改变了

那件事我已经没感觉了

当作没事了

我已经尝试做好自己的本分

原来还不够还是已经没用了

我不明白

冷

January.

2011-01-21T19:06:00.000+08:00

It hurts.
But it's healing now.

I know we can..(:

Smile is on my face again.
I wanna thank many many frenz..
thanks for caring and cheering me up..
thanks for the caring msgs..
thanks for helping and all..
If I dont have all of you,I dont know what I am now.

THANK YOU! (:

Suddenly someone is sick today.
He wanted to buy bread for me because I semi-cacat.
But unfortunately he has fever.
so lemah.lol.xD
So I went to the canteen to buy for him.
Hope noone laugh at me,the way I walk.==
Knew he is sick but cant do anything for him.
Anyway,get well soon(:
Be there when you need..
take care. x)

I'm quiet?yes.(:

2010-12-28T17:21:00.000+08:00

Actually.

I'm
a
quiet
person

INDEED

I
do
think
I'm
quiet

=X

Sometimes I think I dont know how to communicate.
Sometimes I dont know what to say.
Sometimes I dont know if what I would like to say is right or wrong.
Sometimes I dont know how to answer.
Sometimes my mind is just so BLANK.

SOmetimes I'm just so quiet.

So I'm sry if I'm quiet.

so when you say i fuyan,i do understand.
Lo Siento

Ich vermisse dich (:

Back to december.

2010-12-27T01:51:00.000+08:00

haha..dodo asked me to update.x)

Went for a band trip for 3d2n.
hated the last day when i woke up and vomited.
vomited 3 times in a day.
awful! ewww~
hen wai..
the sound i made when i vomited geng wai.==
like a frog.==
but that day i still played at the water park.
it's fun.
ricky made me stuck halfway the slide.haha.
and she screamed till her voice cracked.ahaha.xD
ricky ricky my dog.(:
her barking skill hen li hai..have rubato.xD

the journey home..that chit chat with 2 pros.
thank you so much(:
i finally understood that not only i felt that way.
i will find my confidence this week and try my best next year! (:

I read smth..and it made me feel so worried now.
suddenly i'm worried that i will lose you.
I dont know..
Too bad that you aren't allowed to use hp there at night before you sleep.
or not the ques in my mind now can be answered.
so i'm now waiting for 29th to come.

31st countdown with ky and kel.
gonna buy new year clothes with ky.
haha.

then 3/1 school reopen.
5s XIAO.sad.TT
Can i change class?
It will be a quiet 2011.=X

Ich liebe dich. ♥

i YOU we they he she it.=)

2010-11-28T19:14:00.000+08:00

Hees,1st time update so fast.=)

Btw,thx for the comments below.I appreciate them.
I'm fine now.thx so much :)

Went to cameron.
只喜欢晚上的天气和一边吹风一边欣赏茶园
很舒服
很爽
但是也想到了很多很多个画面
很喜欢那些画面
喜欢画面里的我
很开心
喜欢画面里的那一夜
与你一起看着窗外的夜景
喜欢画面里的你
突然这么关心我
喜欢画面里的那一天早上
与你心灵相通

这些都是很美好的回忆..

昨天晚上花了1个小时半
坐在床上
看回你950封信息
从8月到现在
一边看，一边笑
真的是很好笑
昨夜没有遗憾，只有笑容 =)

其实一开始
我都知道这样比较好
但是有时就是控制不了
对不起
你信任我
告诉我秘密
我也信任你
才会告诉你

其实不用想太多
你回的不错
仅仅那6天，我有珍惜到
谢谢=)

After i have finished writing the above
I feel much better now.
Blog does help.
Thx so much! (:

In the end,it's just a dream.

2010-11-26T15:17:00.000+08:00

Hmm,saw smth today,heard smth ytd.
Which made my heart sank.
Dont know how to feel right now.
I thought I had a chance to get it.
But nope,I'm wrong.
It's hard to forget,I understand.
Maybe i'm too eager.
I dont know.

No mood to hang out anymore.
Just wanna go to some cool places like genting or cameron.
And relax,maybe it will make me feel good.
Love the breeze,
maybe it can frozen up my brain,let it crack.
That's better.perhaps.

Maybe I shouldnt like you anymore.
Although you're good.
Knew you cant forget her.
You're very focus.That's good indeed.
Keep it up.=)

Sometimes I just wanna cry.
But crying is a NO for me now.
Stop the tears pls!
Crying doesnt mean it can be solved.
So just act normal.smile if you can.x)

When I became a person who conceal everythin in my heart?
It's not me.But I am now.
So maybe blogging helps.Hope so.

"That night was sparkling, don't you let it go
I was wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you"
Enchanted by Taylor Swift.
Love this song now.=)

Sometimes you think you are gonna get it
but in the end,it's just a dream..

recently.

2010-10-08T22:45:00.000+08:00

刚刚看了Ah Yan的blog.
好大的感触
虽然我也不认识他
但是他还这么年轻就离开人间了
而且又很聪明
为什么好人比坏人早离开？
为什么？？？
希望那位该死的司机会永远过着痛苦的生活！
最好他被判死刑！
安息吧~ ><

最近好多人伤心
为了爱情，亲情
我想安慰你们但又不是很会安慰
对不起 ):
xinle,002,hsin,kel,joyee
希望你们没事了
Cheer up (:

大考要到了
说过要拼，但还没做到
数学物理可以死了
加油吧大家 (:

最近很多压力
自从当上XX，觉得很有压力
该怎么去面对？
给我时间吧
希望不会做到太烂
现在想起就很怕了
我需要信心
因为我觉得我没有资格当
其实我还很烂
但是我知道我必须面对它
加油吧！
最近有人说我很憔悴
无可否认，我真的很怕 ):
但是很想以笑容溶解害怕 (:

sohgong,
今年跟你不熟了
你来我家，我也没跟你打招呼
也没抬头看你
不知道为什么我会这样
以前总是很开心你来我家
还记得藏在车后面拿着相机迎接你
还记得跟家人和你吃roticanai
不知道为什么突然想起你
希望下次再遇到你，可以说声HI及看到你的笑容(:
despicable me(:
will you see this?
perhaps not,but hope you will(:

loves.to.leehom.x)

2010-08-31T16:48:00.000+08:00

All I want to say is I LOVE LEEHOM <3
yea.
went to his showcase on 22/8.
It was awesome.
He's more handsome in real person.weee xD

His movie.I watched on 13/8 with jiahui.2nd day the movie was released.xD
Wow.I want to watch the 2nd time honestly.
Happy that many love the movie.
and the song 你不知道的事.
I cried when I heard the song for the 1st time.
That is during the movie. x)
AWESOME 8)

crazy over him. xD
love hom forever.(:

quite busy these few days.
but try to face them happily.
that's what i'm trying.x)

P/S Love Ru's post.weee.nice one.8)

Espilce.=D

2010-07-13T20:03:00.000+08:00

Yeah!
Eclipse is showing from 8/7 onwards.
Finally! =)
've been waiting for almost a year.
Weee.x)
Watching on 25th.=]

Concert.
Nervous.Excited.
Just 9 more days.
gosh.
Jiayous,CHWB!!!<3
I love titanic.(:
Last wed watched titanic from 10.30pm-2am.
heard many songs related to our band titanic song.
so excited.xD

P/S Please support our band concert.Tickets selling everywhere.
Find me if you want tickets.Loads are waiting for you.(:

Thanks,Chan.for teaching me =)

P/S Ru getting prettier.(: but always emo.><
Kx sometimes so emo.==
Love QJ's smile =)
Kaiyee so tall.handwriting cantik =]
Px gonna be as dark as me.xD
Xl always disappear durin 2nd rec.TT
Hsin so hangfuk.x)
Ls so 38.=P
Yanmei needs me.haha.=D
Onion still very busuk!
Alvin daib (sry yp)
Yx always say hi.x) not like someone.==

Have a nice day and remember to attend the concert! x)

erm..hi! xD

2010-05-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

wow.2months didnt update==

1month didnt on9==

missed so many.==

hmm,exam's gonna end.

tmr.precisely.

weeeee~xD

gotta practice for sports day and concert.

it's near.

gosh.

heard that justin bieber's coming to kl.

weee.waiting.x)

love watching glee.

a recommended movie.

if you love music.(:

american idol final on wed.

results on thurs.

hope that lee dewyze will win.

prefer him.lol.

it's quite boring this season.

prefer last season.

cause there's adam lambert.

lol.xD

piano exam in june

yamaha exam durin june holiday.

abrsm on june 22nd.

gosh.

my scales.worst of all.hate scales.

gotta prac hard.><

when i look at you..a nice song(:

p/s : S.P.Y asked me to update.shuang?xD

落.

2010-03-13T12:54:00.000+08:00

上了3个月的课
数理真的会死翘翘
大代
三角
物理
化学
生物
...
...
今年考试
已经没有心去读了
每次读1，2页
就zzz了
第2天早上才读
当然成绩就不用讲了
堕落..

那天去看篮球赛
看3节
好刺激
过后去开会
有几个人讲我黑了
原来我这么快就变黑了
如果连续几天操步
你们晚上就看不到我了
晚上只好在家搞自闭算了==

我觉得
我还算勇敢了
勇敢是好是坏
不懂..
至少讲出来了
心里舒服很多 (:

Nah.=X

2010-02-17T16:08:00.001+08:00

Am I under depression?

I don't know why.

Feel so empty.

I don't know what to say.

BBQ on Friday.

Waiting for it.

See ya.

I miss you ;)

Bye.

pointless.

staring the screen for an hour.

Kept writing.Kept deleting.

I guess I kept everything in my heart.

Stubborn heart.

What goes around comes around.

So think before you leap.

twenty ten.

2010-01-17T16:29:00.000+08:00

hi.

It's just 2 weeks after school reopen.
feels like a month has passed.
busy is the only word to describe january.
I know you you you are busy too.
good luck in everything my dears.x)

form 4 is not like what I have expected it to be.
It's worse from my imagination.
Everything is absolutely getting harder.
And taught by teachers who dont even know what they were doing.
And I'm lazy to go tuition.
And I know I'll always ponteng cause of my society.
Need months of practice to achieve what we want to achieve.
It needs more time than doing a mountain of homework.
I hope we will succeed in the end.
Windband.good luck and gambateh. (:

Hmm.became an introvert.
lol.
I've became quiet in class.
not like me yea.
maybe I had too many flashbacks of the past that had gone with the days.

Have I given up?
I've told humans that I had.
But I still have the feeling on you when I see you treating others so good.
I feel lonely.

It's not simple to live a simple life.

kee Xiao.

2009-12-30T16:57:00.000+08:00

lol.it's like in a different world.

i'm in xiao next yr.

zhong xiao ren at gong yi lou.

damn!!!

I HATE IT!!!

disadvantage 1: far away from my buddies.

2: far away from the canteen.

3: can only borrow books from 2 classes.==

4: after school, need to rush to guozilou on thurs & sat.

5: if you're teacher's assisstant, then good luck.

can't think of anymore at the moment.

but if you have any.please tell me. =)

happy new year.x)

see you on monday.

that's so fast.

lol.

SMILE

camp.clarinet.christmas.ccc x)

2009-12-23T00:53:00.000+08:00

camp's over.
it's really tiring.
4 days 3 nights.

btw.I hate my instrument.
Because of the key pad.
So I don't have the mood to play.
awful.><
I hate myself for not playing well.
I hate my tone quality.
I couldn't make the overtone.
I'm just a bad player.

Although I've played since std.4.
It seems that I've only learned for two years.
That's really not up to the standard yet.
When can I play like huili and yichan.
They are really superb.

I want to play like them.
That's my target.
I must the hit the red bull's eyes.
And I want to buy a clarinet.
I hope my mom allows. x)

Titanic medley.
nice melody.
I love it.=)
It's hard.
But we can if we practice.
The key to success is to practice.
That's the only answer.

Happy merry christmas to all.
hohoho~
presents please.Mr.Santa.=)

It's still the same.

failure.

prac.prac.prac.

2009-12-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

lol.lame ==

hmm.long time didn't update.

erm.practice on 1-5,7-12.9am-5pm.

then 14 wanrenyan le.

19-22 band camp.

26-29 leadership camp.

whoah.

hectic holidays.

Today is the worst practice ever for me.

I don't know what happened to me.

cant play well today.

so I did smth stupid.shhh =X

sorry.

Hey dears.

You all seem unhappy.

cheer up yea. =D

What should I do? ><

to be continued when I'm free.=)

3 xiao gathering and new moon =]

2009-11-26T13:50:00.000+08:00

Ru pro.xD

pro at this too.xD
this is the movie we watched at ts.=]

ru+me.=D
look at ru.so cute~
erm.robot.hi.;D
yum yum~ xP
ticket to erm.a lalat place.

hehe.the lalat in boon's teh.xD

miracle.purple fire.=}

before operation.after operation.jan.did you just see a shooting star?xD

lol.shuyi looks like a G.=Dgy took this to show those who ffk.xDyanru+me.guan.are you performing?*clap*
burning marshmallow.erhemm.

ok.so these are the photos.

3 xiao gathering.

It took me 3 1/2 hr to upload.

whoah.finally done.=]

first.we went to ts.

when ru and I reached.

there were only jinhao.yewgeng.me.ru.

the others were late.><

then guan.yonz.yewgeng.jinhao.ru.me watched christmas carol.

while the others:gy.boon.weijian.junhong. went sumwhere.

after movie.went to sg.wang.

bought famous amos.

then took a bus to the lalat place.

haha.then there's a lalat in boon's teh.

he was yer-ing.and we were laughing.xD

lol.then he complained that he had stomach ache.

lalala.then gy's father fetch us to his hs.

gy was so busy.

and we were talking.

guan was the one who talked the most.

he was talking non-stop.like running water.(:

and boon was half asleep ==

lalala.then we had our BBQ at 8pm.

eat.

ate.

eaten.

then bye.

sry.guys.It's a summary.

I'm lazy to write. ><

please forgive me.=)

something very important here.

NEW MOON is showing today onwards.

weee~ I'm watching tomorrow.and saturday.

left edward.right jacob.=D

cheeeese :D

sweet to know.

2009-11-25T16:42:00.000+08:00

Ru dear, guess what.someone said you and him looked like couples.
weeeeee xD
I hope you can cheer up. =]
It's sweet when you have those.
Don't think too much about the things you've told me ytd.
loves.x)

I think they are in love with each other
moreover she's lovable.
she wins man's heart.
hehes.

I think they are in love with each other too.
so sweet =)

hmmm..so yesterday was 3 xiao's gathering.
I'll upload the photos soon.
because it take years to be uploaded.
I'll explain yesterday's situation when I uploaded.
not in a mood to explain it now.
sry.><
and cheer up my frenz (:

A ques here.
Do you prefer to be single or to be in a relationship?
lol.==
Stupid ques.apologies.
I'm just.BORED.

new sun..oops..it's new moon =)

2009-11-19T22:11:00.000+08:00

ok..so new moon is showing tomorrow..

BUT not in Malaysia..><

sobs TT

We malaysians have to wait till next week..

why must we get to watch it LATER???

Not fair huh?!

I wish I'm in US now..xD

just eager to watch it..=)

erm..so 24/11 will be the gathering..

yea..waiting for it too..

but new moon is the priority (:

don't scold me.3 xiao-ers..xD

happy birthday to sailou and yien ^^

loves.^^

oh ya..xinle and ru..

happy for both of you..

Both of you must be in high spirits yea?

haha..anyway..remember to keep it..

I know you will..hearts =D

for ru to grab =)

Ich liebe dich 3 xiao <3

2009-11-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

ps.the last two photos.those who want to have bigger eyes..you could do that.xD

yea.it took me a long time to upload these photos.

come and grab if you want.

happy holiday to all

and I MISS YOU. (:

band practices had been changed to these wed.thurs.sat.

sry sai lou.yienz.shin.hsin

couldnt go to Sunway to celeb your bd

anyway.HapPy BirtHday.an early greeting (:

sry ru.

couldnt go to the bookfair with you and you buddies.

anyway.have fun.

we'll hang out another day =D

3 xiao.the claz i love the most.

3 xiao.our beloved class.

3 xiao.the best

3 xiao.Ich liebe dich <3

meet you guys and girls at gy's house.

be sure to go

be there

it'll be the coolest day for 3xiao-ers.

loves <3